On October 4, 2010, we celebrated the feast of St. Francis of Assissi . The day was also the 40th anniversary of the great St. Catherine of Siena being proclaimed a " Doctor of the Church". Both the saints really do deserve to be called Doctors of Humility, I must say.Both had their moments of Enlightenment, their encounter with Jesus, just as most of us .(Isn't it a fact that we too have had such moments of enlightenment..., those moments when we experienced the nearness of God? Of course, most of us have had our moments of God Experience! Let’s not deny that.) We have had at least our primary school or even a graduate level experience of God. But then we might have stopped with that! But these saints ..., they went a lot of steps forward, they have had their post graduation, nay, they had even gone further in the field of Perfection and have thus attained the coveted Doctorate in Holiness before they died . But how? They worked on it … with real focus! And that is why, Jesus sent both these saints to us for " re- evangelizing" us! (Yes, I did say…“us”! ). There is much to learn from these two saints.
First, let us think of St. Francis. He was one who wrestled with his body in order to control all the vices contained within it. He called his body " Brother Donkey" and commanded it to obey the Master Jesus who was within him. He had the Wisdom to realize that his body was the temple within which the Holy Trinity preferred to dwell. So with persistent wrestling and patient waiting he won over all the vices within him. Slowly but steadily he tamed each of the wild beasts within him - the boasting lion of Pride, the fiery fox of Desire, the self-indulgent swine of Gluttony, the lazy hippo Sloth, the ferocious leopard Anger, the green eyed monster Jealousy, and the foolish race horse Avarice! While taming these wild vices within, he was also nurturing their opposite Virtues. He was so successful in subduing these brutes within him that he could very well tone down the external beasts. That's what the story of Brother Wolf of Gubbio tells us:
“Francis and his companion began to walk on. Suddenly the wolf, jaws wide open, charged out of the woods at them. Francis made the Sign of the Cross toward the wolf who immediately slowed down and closed its mouth. Then Francis called out to the wolf: “Come to me, Brother Wolf. I wish you no harm.” At that moment the wolf lowered its head and lay down at St. Francis’ feet, meek as a lamb.”
He could do so because he had gladly obeyed the tender, kind Voice of the Crucified from the San Damiano Crucifix : “"Francis, don't you see that my house is being destroyed? Go, then, and rebuild it for me." Francis took it as his mission in life and he set out readily to obey that Voice, and with great joy he began the work at once…, and he never stopped his work till death.
Now let us turn to St. Catherine. Christ worked great miracles through her, like healing of the sick and the lame, deliverance of the possessed, raising the dead etc. She even had the stigmata - invisibly during her life and visibly at her death ( Remember , St. Francis who is acclaimed as the Second Christ is the first to receive stigmata in the history of the Church!). Christ’s reasons for choosing her was to save souls and heal his Church. The same mission , to rebuild Church, to Re-Evangelize! One of St.Catherine’s principal teaching was Self-Knowledge – ie. Knowledge of oneself and the Knowledge of God. Both go together.She presented this great mystical teaching using several metaphors , like the well within the well, the cell of self-knowledge , the peaceful sea and the mirror. Catherine’s personal understanding of herself and the knowledge of God started with a solitary experience she had within the cell of her family house when she was sixteen years old.Lord Jesus appeared to her while she was in prayer in that cell, and He said, “ Do you know, daughter, who you are and who I am? If you know these two things you have beatitude in your grasp.You are she who is not and I AM HE WHO IS. Let your soul become penetrated with this truth, and the Enemy can never lead you astray….”
And this became the “fundamental maxim” that turned out to be the cornerstone of St. Catherine’s life and teaching. The wonderful fact is that Catherine understood the great truth of this “maxim” even as a teenager and she continued to work on it. Stone by stone she erected her Temple of life over this sturdy foundation. She realized that she was nothing, that she had no being or existence on her own. What being she had was the Creator’s own doing, her self was a gift of God.
Ever since this encounter with God, Catherine’s whole life became a witness to that attitude of true humility. She herself explains that the cell of our soul is a well in which there is both earth and water.In the earth we recognize our poverty, the fact that we are not, nothing. As we discover this earth , we also discover the Water beneath it, the living Water, the very essence of "God’s will which desires nothing else but that we be made holy”!
Let us ponder over these and dig deeper into the wellsprings of our Self, so that we too will realize what we truly are…
Maranatha, Come Lord Jesus.